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today started 36 hours ago
but this journey began long before
theres spoons on my table, and chewed up straws
at 12 i liked the way it felt
to multiply prescriptions
6 years later, im in this black hole
i need to stop, but
nothing else in the world compares
im more concerned with getting a good deal
just trying to get a good high
just one last time
than to get good grades
or pass high school at all
empty cans scattered all over the floor
i just want more, just another beer
give me a syringe, anything to feel release
so dead inside, like a child stillborn
ill take anything to make me feel at all
powdered white, and tainted pink
i lost my youth with my first good hit
first taste of intoxication
infatuated with a time of sedation
a time back in time, who are we at all
ill give you every good memory
for one of yours
everythings better on drugs
this world ive sunk into, nothing else exists
ill sacrifice my time, my money, my energy too
if you can make me feel as good as you
so dead inside, a gaping hole
my childhoods gone, i dont know happiness
i forgot anger, and forgiveness
all i know now is
jacked, waxed, lit and stoned
comming down, and the shaking withdrawls
is there unfabricated happiness?
all of mine came in colourful chemicals
its too late to try and go back now
my life is bleak, im stuck with this disease
anxiety pulling me in, schizophrenia teasing me
i just want another beer, 10 more pills
a few more grams, a broken syringe
make me forget myself
make me forget myself
before my body decides to decay
i cant say no, the drugs run my life this way
my wasted youth, a pitiful fool
infatuated with a time of intoxication
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